Some random poems

I obviously didn't stick with the 40 days of Poetry because...it just felt...wrong?  Anyway, I'll post a few at a time for a little while and see what happens.

Lord, here I am again

Wandering in the desert

Looking for You, where I know you're not

Why do I seek so hard

In places I know you don't inhabit? 

It gives my mind somewhere to go

So I can pretend I'm progressing

**

I won't eat the fruit of another tree

I say

While the sticky juice is still drying on my hands

I forget and take two more bites

While I’m forming the “why did I do that?”

In my mind

I scream out

“Don’t eat this fruit!”

As I raise it high to show the crowd

I don’t even see the bites taken out

By my own disobedient teeth

That lie next to my blazing tongue

The juice from the fruit

Mixes with my words

As they both fly out into the crowd with my words

Sugar and condemnation

Coated with hypocrisy

Creating a meaning I didn’t intend

**

I'm sorry for making you a tradition

I spent years doing it

And I fall into it at times

Even now

When you are more real to me

Than my own face in the mirror

What I really want

But am too afraid to ask

Is for You to blow me away

Whip at those traditions as You did

The moneychangers in the temple

Drive out any preconceived notions

Upend my bag of tricks

Turn the tables on my self-confidence

For you alone carry my confidence

Don’t let me bring those traditions

Into the sanctuary of

Your sacred, holy presence

Stop the celebration-of-self party

That I’ve been throwing

And only inviting you to

Be the party

Be the fireworks

Be the presents

Be The Presence

I promise to invite the guests

You prepare them